The universe isn't working in your favor, actually

And that's a good thing

I’m a numbers person. Always have been. And it saves me sometimes when my intuition is clouded.

It saved me when I was in an MLM and realized that my success within that structure would always rely upon a certain number of people existing at the bottom of the pyramid. I couldn’t ignore the numbers that told me how statistically unlikely it was for me to experience any real, material success in that industry. I couldn’t ignore the numbers when I sat down and drew out where and how the money was actually flowing in that industry.

Being a numbers person can also be quite a disillusioned experience. Back when I was still mired in what I affectionately refer to as the Manifestation Industrial Complex, I always found myself bumping up against the cognitive dissonance which occurred when I thought about what it would mean if the universe was always working in everyone’s favor. Mathematically, that just didn’t make sense. Some things that are in one person’s favor are directly in opposition to another’s, and there seems to be a disproportionate amount of suffering in the world compared to the number of people living the lifestyle of “ease and abundance” which I was promised by the law of attraction, The Secret, and other voices from that particular school of thought.

This was before I quite understood what capitalism is and how it functions, so I hadn’t explicitly pieced it together that the luxuries of the lifestyle I was aiming for are almost always built upon a system of colonialism, extraction, exploitation, and the pursuit of endless profit. I didn’t need to understand capitalism to figure that part out—I had numbers, and that includes astrology.